Flashcard

Leaning on the railing above the waves, your safe, handsome mouth soothing my crazy mind with magic words that only you knew: "Our secret apricot mornings for the night time things that scare you so. Tell me you hear me, so I don't worry."

"And my Dear One, take my heart: this big thing for your worry." And you thumped your chest, shirtless and dark. We shelled through the salt sand, stranded forevr in the sad-beauty of summer til it turned brown and crisp & you returned back to Cambridge and left me to my poems and fears.

The planet turned and the winter raged, ice melted and when the summer sun flashed in my eyes,you'd return again and pick up where we left off,

I see Rome I see Madrid I see Berlin! You were a boy at the end of your life chasing the surf & twirling your shadow.

and oh how I loved you for that. And that blackbear hair of yours that just needed an ivy crown and hawk feathers to turn you into a bare chested Druid King in board shorts.

I see Neptune I see Venus, no, Im not kidding... I ....really do........see Venus right .........here, you mumbled as your lips touched mine under an August moon.

I couldnt stop myself from loving them forever. I stopped trying again this year.

I see Jupiter I see Mars I see Mercury.

But I couldn't see the Earth with all it's dangers and traps set just for you.

Now Earth just turns and the seasons unravel as I try to hold on:

as lost and unknown as a magic hawk feather that blows forev'r unfound across a winter beach & I can't feel a fucking thing without you, Jem.